Fit.

This is exactly what I've been working for the last two months. I am finally doing more to get what I want. Which, Is healthy. I'm sure people who have seen me sense i started working out have noticed a difference in my appearance but it is a slow one. That's because I'm really working hard to be healthy more than anything. As of today my diet is going to be stricter and I just want everyone to be aware of that. I am going to start becoming the healthiest I've ever been. That is a promise.


Loving life.


Kristy E. E.

Sun.Sun.Sun.

Hello Blogger Readers,

So I'm having a good Sunday, How about you?

I wanted to show you something I thought was pretty awesome! sense I posted a picture of myself in the exact same outfit on here before!

That's pretty awesome yes???  I'd say i'm making progress!! :D it makes me happy to see these kinds of changes in myself when I'm working so hard! Me and Clayton also just got  a GYM pass a week ago so I've been doing cardio!! YES! Can I just tell you how AMAZING it felt to get my heart rate up to 150. Holy Molly. The fact that it's been MONTHS sense I've been able to get it up even remotely that close! So that's been pretty dang awesome. 

Also Clayton and I went to the state fair on Monday! It was "family day" so adults go for the price of kids! cheap stuff man! So that was fun. I"ll post some adorable ribbon winning things and a few photos from there:

First runner up. This delicately sewed Spiderman costume on my all time favorite doll.

[However, the costume is very well done. i'd pass on the doll though]

Second Runner up. These Beautiful hand stitched photograph. Done from a real photo

[it's hard to see if you click on to in large this, you can tell its embroidered. there was not just 1 but 2 of these master pieces. that takes dedication.]

and last but not least the mass amount of strollers in front of the event tent. Mind you it was the ice cream Festival. yummy.

So that's it for the fun photos now to the boring normal photos of us. The adorable couple.

Us waiting in line for the Ice Cream Festival. for
some reason we look 16. i'm okay with it.

to your left is our photo from 2010 and to your right is 2011.
gotta love it.

So this was a fun post! hahaha. I really do love the fair and i really do love losing weight and becoming healthy! I had to go to the doctors and my blood pressure is doing better! woot. also. I promise some day soon i'm going to post about out honey moon. hahaha. Most of them our on polaroids (the good pictures). So I have to scan them alll in. but i'm going to do it! I PROMISE. 

So last bit of news. I spent all friday organizing my Pinterest boards. 

Always,

Kristy E. E.

Truths.

HELLO to everyone.

I'm Kristy. Truth.

I'm married. Truth.

I'm awesome. Truth/False.

I just have to say I loveee my life. I know some of my posts have been slightly depressing. Not lately but during my recovery. 

I've figured things out. I know why I got depressed and I am now coming out of that depression... Think about it. I got married a month later I find out BAM it's time to get the surgery I've needed my whole life. One month later I get that surgery. That's a total of 2 months married by the time I got my surgery. I had hardly ANY time to figure out how to be married before being stuck alone at home most days glued to a couch/lortab/tvshows/DSgames you name it.

Let me just tell you. THAT IS HARD. Truth.

Most married couples are always trying to be together the first year. They have hardly any social life because they just got married and are loving it. I thought something was wrong with me for not just loving my life. But I had a really intense surgery that now at 6 months married i'm FINALLY becoming normal again. Not completely my energy level is still way down and my foot is still struggling but, my life is starting again. at 6 

months married. 

Even though we've been married for half a year  now I feel like we are just married. What I mean is that I feel like I should have when we got home from the honey moon. I'm loving life again. Not every day not all day but most days and mostly all days. All I have to say is IT's Sooo D!@#$ gooood. Excuse the language but it's just awesome. I've been hanging out with the friends that are important to me and clayton and starting our life together. I've made choir lists that help the house stay clean! and clayton has followed them! (so great right?) We are trying to plan our dinners (started this week), that is fun! and so healthy! I'm doing everything in my pour to be fit. No. It's not the Ideal way to lose weight and gain muscle but it's working slowly and it's all I can do. At least I'm trying! and once my body is ready to work out hard truuust me I will!

Man, It's just really nice to feel in control again. Even if it is only a little in control but at least it's a start. Clayton is an amazing companion to have on my side every day all day. He keeps me going. I love him so much and I love everyone in my life right now. Mostly because I don't need facebook to be your friend and you don't need it to be mine. That's the real life.

This song is amazing. It's helped so much during the last three years. enjoy.

smile
Like you've got nothing to prove
No matter what you might do
There's always someone out there cooler than you

I know that's hard to believe
But there are people you meet
They're into something that is too big to be
Expressed
Through their clothes
And they'll put up with all the poses you throw
And you won't
Even know

That they're not sizing you up
They know your mom fucked you up
Or maybe let you watch too much TV

But they'll still look in your eyes
To find the human inside
You know there's always something in there to see

Beneath
The veneer
Not everybody made the list this year
Have a beer

Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you

Now that I've got the disease
In a way I'm relieved
Cause' I don't have to stress about it like you do
I might just get up and dance
Or buy some acid washed pants
If you don't care
Then you got nothing to lose

And I won't
Hesitate
Cause every moment life is slipping away
It's ok

Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Oh, there's always someone cooler than

Life is wonderful
Life is beautiful
We're all children of
One big universe
So you don't have to be
A chump

And you know
(You know)
That I won't
(I won't)
Hesitate
(Hesitate)
Cause every moment life is slipping away
(Away)
It's ok
(It's ok)


Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
'Cause there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
But there's always someone cooler than you
Oh yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Because there's always someone cooler than you

Love always,

Kristy E. E.

Beliefs.joy.happiness

So today is glorious Sunday.

I don't talk about Sundays as I should on here or ever actually. Those of you who have known me most of my life know my strong belief in the church. I've always done my best and been the fun loving kind person I hope to always be.

Honestly, admitting that I have been inactive is not something I've been proud of and normally I would not openly address this like I am now in this post. The truth is though I want to over come that. I want you all to know me and who I am. I'm not the type of person to lie about what I'm doing. I believe I've never lied to any of you about my current stand in the church but I will say I probably haven't been completely honest either. so here it is for all your eyes.

I know some of you probably wonder how faithful I am now though. Sense my parents divorce ,and honestly about a year before that, I struggled with going to church. I want you to know though it is NOT because I didn't believe in the church, because I strongly do and always have and always will. However, I had some of the common struggles of a young women growing into womanhood. "who am i?", "why did this happen to me?", "what have I done? and how can I fix these problems?", "why was I meant to know or see that?". These are just few of my personal struggles in the church meetings on Sundays and also in seminary at the time. I"m not saying I had doubts. I guess in a way they were doubts but to me they were a lot different then that.

Threw these years I've been Very active and Very inactive at times, but I've always had Christ and the Lords love with me and I've KNOWN this always. I never how a doubt in my mind that the way my life has ended up is because the Lord wanted me to be here, now, in this time. I'm a strong believer in fate and destiny. I always say "what happens, happens for a reason." I guess I should say that's what my life has taught me. Despite the way I grew up or the way my family ended, without them I would not be the person I am now.

 I've struggled with knowing who to marry. I had terrible awful no good very bad boyfriends before I met Clayton. when I say that I mean from when I was 16 1/2-20. When I lived in Virginia I was an active and full repentant member. I loved my ward out there and the people. I think the beauty of the state itself helped you appreciate the Lord. Once it be became clear that I no longer was supposed to be there and the family I was with needed some time to be their own family without and outsider inside I decided to move back to Utah. Not an easy decision on my part I had made such wonderful friends out there that I hope to always
keep. Although, like I said before this was all meant to happen.

I came back and shortly after (really like the day I came back) I started dating Clayton P. Edgerton. He was kind and sweet and very thoughtful of me and my well being. As a friend he always supported my belief in the church despite the fact he had never been to a church before, and as a boyfriend he kept that up. As we continued dating it became apparent to me that I could see myself marrying and having a family with him. With this I struggled for months and months and months with how to find out the right way. I know most of you reading this know what i mean. How can I Kristy get married in the Temple. We had a huge, i don't want to say argument, but a very emotion discussion about my wanting a Temple marriage, about half way threw our year of dating. It became apparent to me then how much Clayton truly and deeply loved me . I can't tell you the pain and sorrow that filled him  when I first brought this up. He was in tears within seconds because he felt he could never make me happy. I don't know how the conversation ended that day but it will always be with me. I went a few more months debating and praying and searching for what I was to do. One day (i can't remember what I was doing) but I suddenly had a instant feeling that.. IT WILL BE OKAY. A sudden warmth and reassuring that this was my plan now. I have no idea if it was my plan from the beginning or if I strayed off during the years. but now it was my plan and path.

I just want all of you to know my story my love and my well being. If you ever had doubt about my marriage I hope you don't. I could not have found someone as patient and kind and completely and utterly in love with me as Clayton is. He has proved it more and more every day and I just love him more and more. I've been attending my church as often as I can  with the foot surgery. I started with just going to sacrament once i got used to the crutches and the boot and as of this week (sense there are no homecomings sheesh) attended all three meetings.

So here is my message for today. I have no idea why I just ranted on about that but it lifted something off my shoulders. I was originally going to just put a couple quotes that fell out of my scriptures today but this works too. so I'll put the quotes down here. they are amazing.

"One of the greatest weaknesses in most of us is our lack of faith in ourselves. One of our common failings is to depreciate our tremendous worth."

 -L. Tom Perry

It's such a fantastic quote I nearly cried when I read it. I hope you enjoy it also. The meetings today brought new light to my life. I also have another one that was in same spot where this one feel out. It's a glue in from when I was in Early morning seminary and it's one my sister presented to the class. I.t's actually a short poem or part of one. with a scripture underneath

They Might Not Need Me

-Emily Dickinson

They might not need me;

 but they might.

I'll let my head be just in sight;

A smile as small as mine might

be precisely their necessity 

Love always,

Kristy E. E.

C.R.A.Z.Y Days.

Kay as much as I love crazy days. I'm completely worn out right now. I even had a Mountain Dew and I'm completely burnt to the bone.

So pretty much I had to get my car registered for this year. O.O. I still can't believe that it's been a year sense I bought it! This is the first car that I've had to register twice under my name! I've registered 3 cars and every year it's been a new car! hahaha. it's crazy.

So yesterday clayton was like "I want to deal with your car tomorrow" and i was like "YESSSS" right? so we wake up and he starts looking for any coupons for the chevy dealership. We found one that saved us some moneys buuuuuuuut... There were (of course) some things wrong.. so the grand total was 600 dollars give or take. We also just picked it up! it's been there all freaking day garr. BUUUUT it drives so GREAT now i'm very please with the results.



So while we were waiting to hear back from the car guy we were like "well we need toilet paper" okay let me rephrase this calyton said "oh man we are out of toilet paper huh? i need to take a massive dump" that is word for word to let you know. (don't tell him I put that on here). So we decided to go grocery shopping sense we finally have some money too!! so glad. oh my goodness so so so glad. So we did that and we needed a lot so it took a while but on the way we ran across this yard sell and bout Four really NEAT chairs for 20 dollars all together! they need some attention but  it wont be hard! i'm excited for the project! they will look so great once i paint them and such!

Then clayton was like "kristy you need shoes.." He's so sweet worrying about me. and i'm like "well maybe you are right but uuuugh." Like honestly with how much pain a swelling shoe shopping is not on my list of fun things to do. So we did and we found a couple the problem is I just don't want to go buying good shoes that I could ruin. like stretch out on my right foot because of my swelling or the left foot because soon that will be a different shape and it could be bad to ware those in when  i'll be walking different. ugh. Shopping is just stressful period so we are going to ask my doctor and see what he suggests.

We bought these from target for 6 dollars in the meantime..

Now I'm at home finally and icing my ankle sigh. getting surgery really takes away your strength and energy. i'm so worn out. I also totally flaked on a friend today which I hate doing so i feel awful about that. It was just crazy and I didn't even realize i'd flaked until we were looking for shoes and she texted me :[ but she sounds happy about her new house she's renting! so that's awesome! I can't wait to see the stuff inside it!

here are the chairs. yest they need attention! but aren't they cute?

always,

Kristy E. E.


p.s. just broke a glass vase while trying to get the chair picture. ugh today.

Speaks to my soul.

Lisa likes brandy and the way it hits her lips,
She's a rock 'n' roll survivor with pendulum hips,
She's got deep brown eyes,
That've seen it all.

Working at a night club,
That was called The Avenue,
The bar men used to call her, "Little Lisa, Looney Tunes" She went down on almost anyone.

From the hard time living,
'til the Chelsea days,
From when her hair was sweet blonde,
'til the day it turned grey
She said :

[Chorus]
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
You've got more than money and sense, my friend,
You've got heart and you go in your own way
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.What you don't have now will come back again,
You've got heart and you go in your own way

Some people wear their history,
Like a map on their face,
And Joey was an artist,
Just living out of case.

But his best word was his letters home,
His standard works of fiction about imaginary success,
The chorus girls in neon were his closest things to friends,
But to a writer, the truth is no big deal.

From the hard time living,
Noah And The Whale Life Goes On lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/noah-and-the-whale-life-goes-on-lyrics.html

To the sleepless nights,
And the black and blue body,
From the weekend fights
He'd say

[Chorus]
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
You've got more than money and sense, my friend,
You've got heart and you go in your own way

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
What you don't have now will come back again,
You've got heart and you go in your own way

[Bridge]
On my last night on earth,
I won't look to the sky,
Just breathe in the air,
And blink in the light.

On my last night on earth,
I'll pay a high price,
To have no regrets, and be done with my life

[Chorus]
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N.
You've got more than money and sense my friend,
You've got heart and you go in your own way

Life of Kristy.

Oh Hi,

I feel as if I'm awful at writing. I know my "situation" with surgery is boring but some people (at least I think) want to know how I am doing.

I've been walking for about a week now and it is SLOWLY getting better. My heart misses the boot because now people just assume i'm "better" and I guilty for walking so slowly across intersections or such. Oh silly me and my guilt! All is good and well though. I start my Babysitting job TOMORROW. WHAT? hah. has NOT hit me yet. I am very excited to have something to do even if it is only 2 hours at a time. I'm getting 10 an hour! so it's so worth it. Also I"m going to be working Four days a week instead of just three! which I'm so happy. I"m just so grateful to have this small job. We need the 80 dollars/or more a week. It  is going to be a tremendous relief for us.

On the HARD times of walking. It really just isn't easy. I know I should be grateful i'm walking but the honest truth is it's still almost just as hard as being on the couch. I can't walk for a long time without my leg giving out and becoming light headed and feeling as if I'm going to pass out. The heat this week has NOT helped.

The other Thing I feel is needed to be addressed sense most people are asking this as of now.

Q.When are you getting your next surgery?
A. I'm not completely sure yet. However, I do know that it wont be ANYTIME soon. reason 1: My foot is in no condition to be supporting my intire wait on crutches yet. It is still very swollen and can only fit in flip flops and loosely tied, 1 size too big, Vans that I own. Also, my muscles on the foot (why it's swelling) are still very stiff and uncomfortable. Reason 2: Sense the insurance has failed me :'( and I have to pay for my second surgery I can put it off a little while even if the doctor gives me the go ahead in another month or so. As of right now we are Shooting for November.

Now that my Foot update is out of the way--on to more interesting things. I have to admit I do miss Facebook sometimes, but for the most part I have been much happier sense I deleted it. I've been getting asked the question:

Q. Why did you delete facebook?
A. Well to be completely and 100% honest it made me DEPRESSED. It's really really really hard to read "who wants to go to sevenpeaks? I just bought my pass and need someone to go with", "I just went hiking. Best time this summer yet!", "LAGOON TODAY!", Etc. When you are laid up on a couch all summer/in no condition to even do any vigorous walking when you can walk, then seeing all these fun filled status' break your heart. I"m not saying that I"m mad at ANYONE for being happy. That just isn't the case. I've had pretty low self-esteem (as most girls do) sense my parents split up and am still over coming that and it's been a real struggle to over come my constant worrying. "did she even have fun here? I'm so freaking boring these days" or "my friends don't want to come over during the summer i'm such a gay and lame person to hang out with". Honestly, To those who I have hung out with sense the wedding, I've worried nearly the entire time if you were having fun or I'd feel so bad afterwards that you seemed bored.

I know I know, This is ALL IN MY HEAD and it makes it worse. I am learning to understand this and overcome it. After two years though, It's really hard to do. As of late I've been working really hard to get over my fears and jump into life again! So one of my first steps was "deleting Facebook." Learning that--yes-- facebook kept me in contact with everyone (even people I probably have never really talked to). But did it really keep me in contact? No. I have always been the type of person who would prefer to meet in person or talk on the phone about life. Not read what everyone else is doing while i'm being a home body. So Facebook had to go. It was just as simple as that.

Sorry that was kind of a REALLY long answer but I think I covered it well. I hope everyone understands that I love them and because I love them I decided that living my life and including people in who I want to be and who I am is why I deleted my facebook. Not because I was sick of everyone, or hated people. Simply because it was holding me back.

I've been doing so well sense. I can't even begin to explain how much better.

• I've done things I've wanted to learn how to do for MONTHS because I wasn't waisting time on facebook. I've read like two books sense i've deleted facebook. 
• I made a cleaning chart that I planned on making before my surgery sense I deleted facebook. 
• I've hung out with Four different people sense I deleted facebook. 
• I've sat at a coffee shop talking to my handsome and loving husband sense I deleted facebook. 

I'm not saying that Facebook ruined my life. I'm just saying that not knowing what everyone is doing every hour of every day is really nice. I focus on other things more. and DO things. and I'm just doing things to help me rebuild my life as a wife and as Kristy. I've also been keeping up on Chair-A-Cise and that has improved my mood so much and me and Clayton have been discussing getting a gym pass so I can do some cardio on a Bike machine. which i'm looking forward too. I've always started waking up Early with Clayton and making him and I breakfast and getting started on the day early like I used to LOVE and now LOVE again.


So this entry has turned into a rant mostly.But I think you'll enjoy it :D.

Always,

Kristy E. E.