This is exactly what I've been working for the last two months. I am finally doing more to get what I want. Which, Is healthy. I'm sure people who have seen me sense i started working out have noticed a difference in my appearance but it is a slow one. That's because I'm really working hard to be healthy more than anything. As of today my diet is going to be stricter and I just want everyone to be aware of that. I am going to start becoming the healthiest I've ever been. That is a promise.
I wanted to show you something I thought was pretty awesome! sense I posted a picture of myself in the exact same outfit on here before!
That's pretty awesome yes??? I'd say i'm making progress!! :D it makes me happy to see these kinds of changes in myself when I'm working so hard! Me and Clayton also just got a GYM pass a week ago so I've been doing cardio!! YES! Can I just tell you how AMAZING it felt to get my heart rate up to 150. Holy Molly. The fact that it's been MONTHS sense I've been able to get it up even remotely that close! So that's been pretty dang awesome.
Also Clayton and I went to the state fair on Monday! It was "family day" so adults go for the price of kids! cheap stuff man! So that was fun. I"ll post some adorable ribbon winning things and a few photos from there:
First runner up. This delicately sewed Spiderman costume on my all time favorite doll.
[However, the costume is very well done. i'd pass on the doll though]
Second Runner up. These Beautiful hand stitched photograph. Done from a real photo
[it's hard to see if you click on to in large this, you can tell its embroidered. there was not just 1 but 2 of these master pieces. that takes dedication.]
and last but not least the mass amount of strollers in front of the event tent. Mind you it was the ice cream Festival. yummy.
So that's it for the fun photos now to the boring normal photos of us. The adorable couple.
Us waiting in line for the Ice Cream Festival. for some reason we look 16. i'm okay with it.
to your left is our photo from 2010 and to your right is 2011. gotta love it.
So this was a fun post! hahaha. I really do love the fair and i really do love losing weight and becoming healthy! I had to go to the doctors and my blood pressure is doing better! woot. also. I promise some day soon i'm going to post about out honey moon. hahaha. Most of them our on polaroids (the good pictures). So I have to scan them alll in. but i'm going to do it! I PROMISE.
So last bit of news. I spent all friday organizing my Pinterest boards.
I just have to say I loveee my life. I know some of my posts have been slightly depressing. Not lately but during my recovery.
I've figured things out. I know why I got depressed and I am now coming out of that depression... Think about it. I got married a month later I find out BAM it's time to get the surgery I've needed my whole life. One month later I get that surgery. That's a total of 2 months married by the time I got my surgery. I had hardly ANY time to figure out how to be married before being stuck alone at home most days glued to a couch/lortab/tvshows/DSgames you name it.
Let me just tell you. THAT IS HARD. Truth.
Most married couples are always trying to be together the first year. They have hardly any social life because they just got married and are loving it. I thought something was wrong with me for not just loving my life. But I had a really intense surgery that now at 6 months married i'm FINALLY becoming normal again. Not completely my energy level is still way down and my foot is still struggling but, my life is starting again. at 6
months married.
Even though we've been married for half a year now I feel like we are just married. What I mean is that I feel like I should have when we got home from the honey moon. I'm loving life again. Not every day not all day but most days and mostly all days. All I have to say is IT's Sooo D!@#$ gooood. Excuse the language but it's just awesome. I've been hanging out with the friends that are important to me and clayton and starting our life together. I've made choir lists that help the house stay clean! and clayton has followed them! (so great right?) We are trying to plan our dinners (started this week), that is fun! and so healthy! I'm doing everything in my pour to be fit. No. It's not the Ideal way to lose weight and gain muscle but it's working slowly and it's all I can do. At least I'm trying! and once my body is ready to work out hard truuust me I will!
Man, It's just really nice to feel in control again. Even if it is only a little in control but at least it's a start. Clayton is an amazing companion to have on my side every day all day. He keeps me going. I love him so much and I love everyone in my life right now. Mostly because I don't need facebook to be your friend and you don't need it to be mine. That's the real life.
This song is amazing. It's helped so much during the last three years. enjoy.
smile
Like you've got nothing to prove
No matter what you might do
There's always someone out there cooler than you
I know that's hard to believe
But there are people you meet
They're into something that is too big to be
Expressed
Through their clothes
And they'll put up with all the poses you throw
And you won't
Even know
That they're not sizing you up
They know your mom fucked you up
Or maybe let you watch too much TV
But they'll still look in your eyes
To find the human inside
You know there's always something in there to see
Beneath
The veneer
Not everybody made the list this year
Have a beer
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Now that I've got the disease
In a way I'm relieved
Cause' I don't have to stress about it like you do
I might just get up and dance
Or buy some acid washed pants
If you don't care
Then you got nothing to lose
And I won't
Hesitate
Cause every moment life is slipping away
It's ok
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Oh, there's always someone cooler than
Life is wonderful
Life is beautiful
We're all children of
One big universe
So you don't have to be
A chump
And you know
(You know)
That I won't
(I won't)
Hesitate
(Hesitate)
Cause every moment life is slipping away
(Away)
It's ok
(It's ok)
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
'Cause there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
But there's always someone cooler than you
Oh yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Because there's always someone cooler than you
