Truths.

HELLO to everyone.

I'm Kristy. Truth.

I'm married. Truth.

I'm awesome. Truth/False.

I just have to say I loveee my life. I know some of my posts have been slightly depressing. Not lately but during my recovery. 

I've figured things out. I know why I got depressed and I am now coming out of that depression... Think about it. I got married a month later I find out BAM it's time to get the surgery I've needed my whole life. One month later I get that surgery. That's a total of 2 months married by the time I got my surgery. I had hardly ANY time to figure out how to be married before being stuck alone at home most days glued to a couch/lortab/tvshows/DSgames you name it.

Let me just tell you. THAT IS HARD. Truth.

Most married couples are always trying to be together the first year. They have hardly any social life because they just got married and are loving it. I thought something was wrong with me for not just loving my life. But I had a really intense surgery that now at 6 months married i'm FINALLY becoming normal again. Not completely my energy level is still way down and my foot is still struggling but, my life is starting again. at 6 

months married. 

Even though we've been married for half a year  now I feel like we are just married. What I mean is that I feel like I should have when we got home from the honey moon. I'm loving life again. Not every day not all day but most days and mostly all days. All I have to say is IT's Sooo D!@#$ gooood. Excuse the language but it's just awesome. I've been hanging out with the friends that are important to me and clayton and starting our life together. I've made choir lists that help the house stay clean! and clayton has followed them! (so great right?) We are trying to plan our dinners (started this week), that is fun! and so healthy! I'm doing everything in my pour to be fit. No. It's not the Ideal way to lose weight and gain muscle but it's working slowly and it's all I can do. At least I'm trying! and once my body is ready to work out hard truuust me I will!

Man, It's just really nice to feel in control again. Even if it is only a little in control but at least it's a start. Clayton is an amazing companion to have on my side every day all day. He keeps me going. I love him so much and I love everyone in my life right now. Mostly because I don't need facebook to be your friend and you don't need it to be mine. That's the real life.

This song is amazing. It's helped so much during the last three years. enjoy.

smile
Like you've got nothing to prove
No matter what you might do
There's always someone out there cooler than you

I know that's hard to believe
But there are people you meet
They're into something that is too big to be
Expressed
Through their clothes
And they'll put up with all the poses you throw
And you won't
Even know

That they're not sizing you up
They know your mom fucked you up
Or maybe let you watch too much TV

But they'll still look in your eyes
To find the human inside
You know there's always something in there to see

Beneath
The veneer
Not everybody made the list this year
Have a beer

Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you

Now that I've got the disease
In a way I'm relieved
Cause' I don't have to stress about it like you do
I might just get up and dance
Or buy some acid washed pants
If you don't care
Then you got nothing to lose

And I won't
Hesitate
Cause every moment life is slipping away
It's ok

Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Oh, there's always someone cooler than

Life is wonderful
Life is beautiful
We're all children of
One big universe
So you don't have to be
A chump

And you know
(You know)
That I won't
(I won't)
Hesitate
(Hesitate)
Cause every moment life is slipping away
(Away)
It's ok
(It's ok)


Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
'Cause there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit
But you won't be it for long
But there's always someone cooler than you
Oh yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Because there's always someone cooler than you

Love always,

Kristy E. E.