If You Want It Have It.

I'm done with it.

All I have to ask is before you say "I wish I had foot surgery so I could have a vacation" please.. Please.. and PLEASE... Think about what it is actually like..

First..
Whats a vacation?

An extended period of recreation, esp. one spent away from home or in traveling.


 Lets take that one step further..

Recreation:

Activity done for enjoyment when one is not working.

I read those and I cried.. I hate to sound bitter or mad or like life has done me a wrong. But today.. today I decided I'm taking a day to feel bad for myself.

I don't know about you but what i'm going through sure as hell isn't a vacation.. reasons?

1. I am not spending any time away from my home.
2. I'm not enjoying this..

other things?

1. I can't clean my house.
2. I can't shop.
3.I can barely stand up for 10 min.
4.I can't walk around the block or to the park.
5.I sit on my couch for almost every hour of the day.
6. I go to the doctors nearly once or twice a week sometime 3 times.
7. I get prodded and poked at 5 or 6 times a week.
8. I can't ride a bike.
9. I've watched every TV show I possibly can find. don't believe me? ask? hah...
10. I can't even read books for the most part because lortab makes me forget the page before..
11. Worst of all.. No one knows why i'm not healing.

I could go on trust me. So if by any chance you think that saying you WISH you had this.. please.. think again.. I'm going on 3 months of barely being able to walk.. Today even I reverted back to crutches.. Tell me if you want that? because I'd trade for your job, your broken car, having to ride the bus or bike every day.. even walking to every location I needed to go... I'd take it all. so let me know I'm here for the trading.. but I promise it's no vacation or walk in the park.. I'm sorry if this is harsh or mean.. but I'm tired.. and I'm hurting... and it's hard to get bad news on a weekly or daily basis.. and I wish my friends.. would remember that.. I understand your lives are busy.. But please don't forget me..

I'll act like i'm fine.. and for the most part everyone around me believes it.. but i'm broken inside and out.. don't make me beg to have company.. I'm lonely.. and scared.. so scared...

Be More Aware.

Just at least NOTICE when there is someone With a BOOT, CRUTCHES, AND not only that but a MACHINE connected to them.

Don't just push them aside. and don't let your friends do it directly after you.

I not only got it Once but it happened Six times in a row.. then After the movie People Walked Directly in my path while I was focusing on just Walking.

Be More Aware PLEASE.. Someone could get HURT. D:

May You Always Do For Others.

What others do for you...

I just really wanted to write about all the amazing people who have been here for me this last hard month and my last surgery.

First..

Clayton,

Of course he is the first. This year is not ideal for a new married couple and we just hit 11 months being married! unbelievable. However, I couldn't love you more. I swear this experience has made us so much closer we've had to deal with the gritty sooner than most couples.. you sometimes had to help me get dressed and even helped me clean myself the first surgery. Not only that but this isn't easy.. we got so jealous of each other both times I think.. more so the first time.. You being gone me being at home. We've had some rough rough confrontations and i'm grateful we got them out of the way yeah maybe it would have been nice to be in the "married bubble" but i wouldn't trade knowing how much you love me and how well you take care of me for the world. I love you so very much and this would have been the worst experience of my life without you.


Ausia, Thom and Baby Olive,

You guys really have been the biggest support I could ever ask for. You've come over and cheered me up more than anyone else and I couldn't be more thankful. I hope I can be the same friend to you and so does clayton. we appreciate it so very much and I hope that you know that. We can't wait to be long time friends. Thankyou.

Brittany (sister) and Tyler (brother),

You have come over and made us dinner and just filled up some of my lonely time. I appreciate it so much thank you. and Tyler you're just crazy and just make me feel like i'm not broken. Which is appreciated because it's hard to just sit here and talk about my foot sometimes. both of you did this.

Dad,

Thank you for your support. Really i think during this time has been the most supportive you've ever been in my life. I'm not saying to bash I just think Cheryl has made you a better man. So i should be thanking her too. Just when I made the phone call to you the other day after the doctors appointment I expected you to just tell me "Well you're on antibiotics so you'll get better." You surprised me though and showed me real empathy so thank you it's exactly what I needed and it's made this easier. I love you.

Mom,

I know you're busy and tyler keeps you that way ;) so honestly just the fact that you remember me is enough. I love you and hope we can go have a girls day soon. I hope you don't feel bad about not being here a ton but really it's okay. I know you're always here if anything major happens.


Toooooo all the little guys ;) (just kidding you aren't little!)

Jacob, Aaron, and Gene,

You guys are my stress relievers I'm sorry I don't mean that in a bad way but you guys are great! making jokes and just being there for me. I know it's mostly through texts but it's great and I appreciate the littlest things! so thank you!

Cait,

Thanks for the other day and for just being yourself! i loved it! silly and fun and just something to do even though I thought I was going to walk. I'm looking forward to our movie night and possible game or something nights! you're are great.


I'm not making this post to be little anyone I just really needed to thank those who have really been here for me. I don't do it enough and it means the world to me. It really does. So thank you. For being friends who talk to me about you stuff and who listen about my stuff and who care. So thank you, thank you, thank you! And I hope I can show you the same kindness.

Claiming Mrs. Edgerton

All my words.

All I have to say today.. and for the last few weeks...

I love the TV show New Girl. It's the only thing that brightens my week. I laugh out loud through the whole show.

Right now i'm watching new girl.. <3

World.My.World

Hello Readers,

Today I'm updating with News and just general updates. I'm trying not to write about my foot surgery detail too much because of my separate blog specifically about my foot surgery. So I'll give you a brief update on here like last time. I had my 1 week doctors appointment today! Which means taking off all the fat Padding they put around my foot! Yay! Free foot! Everything is healing good he said it looked great and because I didn't have the Tendon surgery it's much easier to bend my ankle! YIPPIE! I can already do it without problems. last time it was REALLY hard to get it in 90 degrees.

BAAAD news: Because it snowed (which happened before my surgery too) I slipped going up the porch steps..... TERRIBEL, TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE experience... I ended up almost putting half my weight on my foot.. not quite though mostly just on the toes which is good.. Either way the doctor said that I couldn't hurt it. In the sense of  breaking bones or anything because of How many screws and plates I have in my foot. BUUUUUUT I'm in a crazy insane amount of pain.... sighh... Accidents happen I guess... however, I really hope it doesn't snow ever again.. :( It's making life hard.

GENERAL UPDATES--

Life has been pretty awesome other than surgery. I've had visitors almost every day! except like one! Which crazy!! and A lot different then last time. I feel so supported and so loved. I have some really great people in my life and I think that last surgery was just a really bad timing because I had just got married and moved to sandy and wasn't settled in married life and yadda yadda! I'm gong to post some fun pictures.

Pawz, Brittany, Tyler <3 Me and britt cross stitched

Nathan and James Watching Teen Mom 2

Tyler watching Teen mom 2

A and Baby watching some movies

My handsome (single ;)) friend J

Baby and T 

Baby and T again I love these photos

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There you have it! Some fun filled photos of my friends and family! Thank you guys for so much support! I Barley have time too worry about my foot it's amazing! I haven't felt lonely/depressed once! I love you all! Ps. Sorry I take a bajillian pictures when I'm high on pain killers haha. i love them though;.

ALways.

Claiming Mrs. Edgerton

Day One--Foot Surgery #2

Goood morning everyone!

So I did Deactivate my Facebook on Sunday I kept it so people can still tag me. I have my own personal reasons for doing it. It's just better when I'm sitting at home all day every day sometimes mostly alone. I'd just would rather Not have facebook. Mainly for the same reasons I wrote before--

WHY I DELETED FACEBOOK.

So anyway Surgery was Yesterday Of course I have the blog about my foot surgery HERE. But I'll give everyone a brief description so that you don't have to read my drawn out Surgery blog. haha I love having a separate blog though. I love that I'm helping people deal with this Major Major surgery.

So Here is a cool picture showing my Right foot and Left yesterday before surgery. Sense My right foot is fixed.

It's crazy how straight my right foot is now!

I thought everyone would love to see that! I  do. It's really awesome to see the difference, and the proof of how it worked!

Okay back to yesterday. I got there at 9.15 and got everything filled out and the IV put in and the doctors came to talk to me then took me back at 10.30! Which was AMAZING having it so early. It was very smooth compared to my last one! Thank goodness. and The doctors and nurses were really fun all of them! Which also helped! It was at the NEW IHC hospital in Murray! All the IHC hospitals are nice but this one was really nice. 

Conversation with anesthesiology--

Kristy "My husband was joking around last night saying that your job is to get people to as close to death as possible"

DR. Pace " (awkward chuckle) Well... not in your case really....."

Kristy "Oh no no no it was a joke! but (points to dad) he had heart surgery"

DR. Pace " Well that's closer!"

Everyone Laughs! it was fantastic!

So I got put to rest and woke up feeling amazing about my choice to get my feet done and that it was over!!!  Then the best part was that my dad was there my sister came!!! which surprised me but it was amazing! and my friend A called my dad to see how I was before I was awake then called me when I got home and she came over to visit!! It was amazing having so much support this time and I couldn't be more grateful for the people who are in my life! The pain hasn't been nearly as bad as last time! having only the two surgeries is so much better! and they got it in the boot this time! Which last time , because of the extra bone I had two procedures on either side of my foot and the foot was TOO swollen for 3 weeks after surgery before I could wear the boot! And the boot is lighter and more comfortable then  the bandaging last time! so I'm so happy about that. it makes it a lot more manageable I think.

Top View of the Plate in both feet now this is my left though.

I was way excited when they gave me this picture this time! I haven't seen it at this top view before! those screws are HUGE. Alright well feel free to read my other blog also. Comment/text/email. I love all of you.

Claiming Mrs Edgerton

The Second Time Around.

Hello Blogger friends!

Soooo. I'm getting surgery for the second time on my Right foot in a total of 2 days.

January 9th 2011 at 9:15am.

I'm kind of scared right now.

It finally hit me today that I'm going threw this again... yeah It's great that the first one is over but I never really wrote the hardest parts on here. or how I honestly truthfully felt. This one I think will be better. I already have people who have promised to come over this time and I'm so extremely grateful. Last time it was really hard because I was supposed to be in my "honey moon" stage in my marriage so I'm sure my friends maybe stayed away for that. I'm not sure but it wasn't... and I was alone a lot.

Anyway I'm just ready for it to be done... We are both REALLY excited for it to be over finally. After this I'll feel like I can really get my life back. or have a better idea of where to go and look forward.

Surgery is scary though. Luckily everything went so well last time and we had no complications that I really haven't had any worries until like an hour ago. I don't know why but I just kind of got scared, sad, worried.

I'm really glad it's in the morning! I just found out the time today and it means clayton can come and be with me before I go into surgery! I'm also getting surgery in one of the nicest hospitals in Utah right now. It was just barely finished being built which is awesome and my doctor did an amazing job last time and I trust him.

Sigh.. Okay, I'm done now.

Don't forget me.


Mrs. Edgerton